No matter how much I want to quit everything and just give up I need to realize just how strong I actually am. I am a champion. I must, as Dory says “Just keep swimming“. No matter what I think or feel I just must keep ongoing.
With everything that has gone on in my life, everything I have overcome in the last nearly 2 years has been totally amazing. Even though I am worried and still scared as to what is to come and a lot of the time I just don’t want to keep going on, I also know that I have to keep on going no matter how hard things get.
It is so hard for me and people just don’t understand it or me most of the time. And this does make things so hard because people just don’t understand what I am going through. I know other people have similar issues, but we all react and are different in how we handle things. But, I am totally sick of putting on the brave face and big smiles when I am not feeling it. I need to start showing my true feelings, which most of the time is not this happy chappy that everyone thinks I am.
Something that I have learnt, the hard way, over the last 20+ months since being in my unit, before I get my forever home, is that I have had to remove some toxic people out of my life that has been causing me some issues with my mental health and just dragging me down. It has been hard for me to do but something that was necessary, but I wish I didn’t have to do it, I totally wish on one of those people that it didn’t come to it because we have known each other for so long. But right now I have to do what is best for me and my health. My life is no longer about whatever everyone else wants, my life is just that, it’s my life and I will lead it in whatever way I need to,
So, I am taking what the picture above says: “Don’t Quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a Champion“. I am just that, a champion and I am going to live my life to that effect from this point forward no matter what anyone else says.