Everything lately has been going wrong. My depression has been starting to hit home a bit lately, I hate when these times come on and there is nothing that I can do about it. This morning I went out to the waterfront for a little bit and got some breakfast from Eat Street, which is a small cafe overlooking the waterfront.
I went and sat in my normal little spot alone, had my medication, bacon and egg roll and a Mango Crusher. Pretty much exactly the same thing I always do and get at the same spot. And as school went back on Monday there weren’t too many people down there either. Which is good for me, which is why I always plan around the 9 to 10am time to get there.
The plan was to stay down there for a couple of hours, but it didn’t work that way. I ended up having a panic attack and had to call one of my workers to come and collect me, then we went to Coles briefly to collect a couple of items and some smokes before my big shop on Friday or maybe tomorrow, depending on how I feel and when I get the online order done. For the rest of the day, I was just in and out of bed, which is normal when my depression is playing up as it has been over the last few weeks. Right now Home and Away is on and finishes in about 5 minutes then its the Grand Final of Big Brother, I personally hope Chad wins. He deserves it, not to mention his a bloody hottie too lol.